that is self doubt.
Seriously, why do we do it? Why spend hundreds of hours slogging over something that you know will be 'the one' then spend even more hours making it 'so perfect you just know that it is the one?'
Then, after it's as shiny as a brass door knob, you submit it thinking that will be the end of it. You can now go on to write something knew and completely forget about the work you submitted, right?
I worked and reworked my entry for New Voices, trying to make it unpredictable, trying to take my CP partner's views on it and, gaining approval from her, subbed it to the London office.
And I thought it would be all over after that. I am sooo naive. Why couldn't I see all those excellent ways I could have improved it before? It's madness.
Even though I have my project for NaNoWriMo to 'take my mind off things' it's still not enough. Am I going to be a nervous wreck, refreshing my inbox several times a day for the next six months or does it get easier?
All views would be appreciated. It's not my first time subbing somewhere, but I'm beginning to realise that doesn't matter. My mind still plagues itself with doubt each and every time and I wonder if those who make it still feel that way.